[.jade.samantha.]
At 8:34 a.m. on May 02, 2005
i feel like a betrayal. a loss of thoughts or words. with these goosebumps rising on my skin. and these prickles on the back of my neck. i can't help but turn around.
i feel my baby moving every day. and i can't quite picture what she'll look like. or what it will feel like. I keep having dreams that i forget. and this is my biggest fear. because i never want to be like my mother. no matter how much better she's gotten. i never want to be like my mother. and i never want to forget anything about my little baby girl. ever.
