[.daniel.]
At 9:13 a.m. on May 03, 2005
i never thought. that losing you. would be the end of me. and i always knew. that what we had. wasn't the real thing. and though i pretended. and tried to convince myself. that this was it. that this was forever. it was always in the back of my mind. that this love. would lead to destruction.
but him. when he held me in his arms for the first time. i didn't even have to think about whether this was forever. i didn't even have to think at all. because the moment that he held me. that first night under the stars. under orion's belt. i knew. god, i knew. that i would marry this man. that i would have this man's children. and that i would spend the rest of my life completely in love with this man.
the difference between the two. is that for the first, i thought with my head. and for the last, i didn't think at all. i only felt. i felt electricity. i felt magnetic. i felt him.
and this is how i know. that this is for always. and that this will not turn out how all of my other relationships have. because these three years. have become my whole life.
